Life?

Life?

Worthless.....you wanna be loved
Loveless .....you wanna be real
Joy ...you resist
Break the barriers.....Just to become......

Waste all the time you want
One day you will need it
Taken away from you,Everyone will fade
I once loved life and payed for it dearly

Ripped away from all you know
Seeing yourself reflected in your dreams...
Cry yourself back to sleep
What is the use of caring??What you sew....You reap

The mood intently Goes away
Will you like to live....To die?
Talk like you love me....and walk away
Goodbye .....my prey

How can you live life like you know the end??
Hurting me along the way??
Kisses and love just a lie and you will pay
I will see you again....maybe yesterday

Make your threats..and get your attention
No control of my life....
Your life is like a Shadow
You turn around and its..........Gone..

Need to be by yourself??
And think of ways to hurt me .....Hurt yourself
Like the baby in the bucket
I have no choice

Living for you and hurting myself ...i learn to hate you
Needing to get away...I am drawn to you
Licking my wounds...Just to have them tore back apart
Just kill me now...Stab me in the heart

I want to leave but i can't
Wanting to hate you.....And love you...All the same
Rage in my mind....Pain in my heart....You did it all
Never cry on me again....leave me alone

One day i will watch you go away
Bleeding for you....Bleeding even more for me
Eyes so empty tears are only dream
Memories of a lost love...Never to find the truth

Necrosis Vulgaris

Necrosis Vulgaris

Immortalized in stone you break apart
Stood your ground,But not for long
Rise and fall,Pheonix reborn
So many times you failed us(Nevermore)

On the throne of blasphemy,Casting us out
Power,Fear,and Cult following made you a god?
Tyrannical Emperor upon a throne of clouds

Fear you?!?!?Why? Do you exist??
Strike us down for disobedience??
You love us ....Remember??
Fear is in the heart of the coward...Are you Afraid??

I don't know what to do...
Why did you kill my dreams??
Will you make it all okay???
I believe in you...You brought me death

Took her from me...With the child inside
Took him away...Love and youth....All taken away
Why i ask you???Why??? I damn you!!!
Let me meet them again!!!!!Nevermind

Where you are ,You made it yourself
If we join you,Our memories you wipe clean
If we revolt out souls you burn......Fear you???? NEVER
ALL I LOVED YOU TOOK FROM ME!!!

I desperately want to show you what it's like
Immortal as you are ....You could not handle this
My life.....Too much for you
Why????Oh Why??......Will you ever die??
Please let me watch

Let me hold your existance.in MY hands
Take from you...Make you cry
Watch and laugh as you become demented by your mental agony
You never gave a fuck...And never will...one soul means shit to you

Please take my mind for just one second...and you will see a hell
1,000,000 times worse than the one you call hell
All that is will never be again
We are just a endless game to you

You call yourself god????why is this?
You know respect and gain fear from the ones you call your (lambs)??
Setting us up for the slaughter,Its Us you devour
We the children,You the father??Then give us our own lives

We rule the earth ...not you
I invite you to come and start a life of your own
See the rigors of being
The HATE we feel for you.....

Hydrochloric Dream "Adults Only"

Hydrochloric Dream "Adults Only"

You are perfect pain,Flawless and.....
Pure you are...Lovely as a fallen rose
Draped in red satin..Movement flowing and graceful
Ivory skin,Raven black hair,a touch of mystery
Long nails,Painted like teardrops of blood,You lure me in

Crushing beauty,Ravenous lover
Upon a pedestal so high
Ruling the night,Damning the day
Vampiric or immortal, Everlasting beauty will never fade

Runic tattoos accent your naked back
Conforming to your shape
The victim's blood serve as your ink
Black widdow of the dark,Envenomate me

I am trapped within you eyes
Stained by your cruelty(loving it)
Robbing my soul blind
Caressing your face,Feeling perfect skin

Dark Angel how foreboding
Angelic black wings your only cover
Loving a demon,A mainacial angel
You will never be the same

Fire lights the night
Mausoleum the setting for us my sweet
Claws scratching at bear sweaty flesh
Wounding and tearing at each other in the heat of the moment

All this passion you give
Juices flowing down your thigh
My long hair in your face
Heaving,Sweating,Coming....

Seeds of evil being spread
Come into being by our (love)
Fluids mingling,Flesh contouring and sweating

Like the virgin mary Becoming a whore
Lying in a bed of callousness
Not deserving what is going on
A dirty FUCK from the damned

Bleeding Me

Terror is all i feel in this world of light
Feeling like you are bleeding the life from me
Crying like the birth of limbless child
Killing me with lightning bolts from your useless god

Night falling on this bloody planet
Like a raped child i stand in defiance
Mirror of this realm looking like eden
Why is this the only way to live??

So alone i tear at my skin
Hoping to free the pain,the insects
Decomposed fetus you want to bury
I come back for you and i will ravage

What time is it in your world
Screaming i feel so hollow
The bones you have i'll borrow
I need to stand on my own,Blow you away

Loving like ilove no other
I shead my skin,Sunshine smells like death
My soul hates me as i look into you
Insane you look like me..Burn me out

Looking away you waste my life
Going to hide in the bloody hole
Veins cry in pain,Acid scars decorate me
Human smoke smells like innocence

Caught up in my little maze
Staring eyes boar into you
Daggers feel so good Haunting you
Realize you will not win,disembowel the angels

You hold your gun to my head,only to find out its not there
The pain of a thousand cold hearts dying
Cells slowly rotting and screaming out
Time to let you know you been dead for days

Showers of sparks incinerate the sky
Breaking and crumbling...falling down upon you
I'm the Square root of insanity times death
Smelling of raw meat i see through you

See me and you want to cry
Feel me and want to kill
Rape me and you want to die
........One question........

CAN YOU HANDLE LIFE?

Playing Chess With Charles Manson

Playing Chess With Charles Manson

Tell me if i am wasting my time
Trusting you as far as i do
Killing my life for you,Needing more
Setting here in a Chair,Feeling like a hole

No more time can i waste.Wandering about like
Ecstasy or agony,Are you me?
Loving life like loving me
Knowing only what i tell you,Am i me?

Even as i set here i can feel your pain
Cold steel in my hand.pain is all i need
Rape in my own mind i am jealous of myself
Killing you as i die.all i have is your health

Pain i feel like i am being unborn
Being eaten by time,I am all you are
I can't accept the way i feel,Won't accept the way i am
Fucking time my enemy.Tying me to a chair
Do i know me ?? I don't give a damn

Exempt to the trials of life
I won't keep this to myself
The pain is too good
Feed it to oneself

Catch me on fire to cool me down
Cold as liquid ice,Frozen in my pain
Crosses and spears in my mind
Bleed for me,I'll die for you

Landscapes blurred by life
Ritualistic scarring of my time left
Totalitarian beast,ravaging your body
Scarring me,Scaring you,Drifting away

Blood stains my hands,Leaving a world of hurt behind
A fossil at the end of time,Once again unborn
In a world of Asphalt and machines
Killing myself,my being

Trekking off into the unknown,Knowing where i'll be
I will die before i am born,And bleed from my eyes
Swarm of flies leading me to my end
Larvae infest this world like the air you breathe

Die for me,I'll bleed for myself
Chaos takes over my mind as i set here
The needle in my arm makes everything ok
Killing me so i will be first born,A dead time before us
Feast with the mechanical maggots.....


Wanting to me myself.I died long ago
Hallowed be thy name..I will go insane

Wash it away.keep it to yourself

Psycho Supreme


Giving in will be your only option
Giving up will be wise
Giving a shit will get you nowhere
Give your life would work if you had a clue

Wandering what you did to set me off
Lying there bleeding in a confused state
MOTHERFUCKER!!!!!!!BLEED!!!!!!!

Never will you see it coming
Pain terrorizing you
Seeing your shadow running in fear.Follow behind it ,Don't even move
Catching up i keep kicking you for making a stupid move

Now you will feel the pain,You caused yourself
Feel the irony of your own life,Squeel like you love it
Bleed for me....beg it to stop
Keep it all in cause of your pride(call the cops)
BLEED!!!!!!!!!GOD DAMN YOU!!!!!!!BLEED!!!!!!!

Looking towards the sky,Clouding over
You need to breathe,Shallow and painfully
Slowly blacking out,all your air leaving(peck peck peck)
Breathe as soon as i get my foot off your fucking neck!!!

I will never forgive you!!!!!!HURT ME????
Shock to the system..Power cord round your neck
Turn your back to me???...Feel my power
Click..... BOOM BOOM BOOM.....Smoking barrel
BLEED!!!!!!!!FUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!BLEED!!!!!!!!!

ONE.....better fuckin run
TWO......Im faster than you!!!!
THREE.....Look at me
DEAD BEFORE YOU EVEN KNOW WHAT'S GOIN ON!!!!!

Hell is eternal like me
Invincible nightmare i am!!!!!
Haunting you time on earth
I am damned

Nightmare Remembrance

Nightmare Remembrance

No clarity of mind,Systemic neurological shutdown
Overloaded and crushed under the weight of your heavy heart
Caged within your own mind,suffocating,panicking....realities ghost
Never again to see the light of the real sun,neurosis

Caged within your own being...endless plains of pain
Infinite world with no time or end
Never reaching the end...never to survive the endless night
Going insane trying to die....Thoughts demon takes flight

In the real world things are quite different
Trying to snap you out of it
Lobotomy and drugs shred your plain of being
Chunks removed to bring you here,,never knowing,never seeing

Boring into you...shredding what chance you have
A normal life,,,never again
Torment,feeding off the sounds you hear
So close but so,so, far away

Feeling to pain done to your body
The saw opening your skull
Probes and electrodes Frying your mind
In a world of Nega Reality,tranquility you'll never find

Losing your soul,To try and regain your lost life
Biomechanical nightmares
Synapse failure
...............END PROGRAM................................

Blood Pet

She is a beautiful creation
But as deadly as cyanide
Loving only the pain she gives
Skin as pale as snow(Heart like ice)
Only thing we know of her is that she lives


Luring you in with words of deceit
Smelling of fallen roses
Piercing look in her eye telling you
Come to me
Touching so softly
Making you believe

Her eyes like the sun(Burning into your soul)
Chaos pulsing through her veins
With a smile of rage(Venom drips from her delicate fangs)
Heart as black onyx(Spinning you a web of nothingness)
One glance and you are Trapped(placed upon a shelf)
One more soul to prey on(you are not by yourself)

Embrace her (Give her your trust)
She will hold you back with all that she is
Not noticing that she is feeding from you
You feel secure (knowing you are not alone)

She as beautiful as your most vivid dream
Twice as deadly as your worst nightmare
Sweet and smart(Makes you feel like a man)
Never knowing the soulless eyes.Trapping you forever

Her eyes like the sun(Burning into your soul)
Chaos pulsing through her veins
With a smile of rage(Venom drips from her delicate fangs)
Heart as black onyx(Spinning you a web of nothingness)
One glance and you are Trapped(placed upon a shelf)
One more soul to prey on(you are not by yourself)

You find yourself thirsting for life
You start to become weak and dependant
Stripped of your pride and self awareness
Becoming her pet(But still not letting go)

Dying as she walks away.you notice things hidden before
The snow white skin is really a charcoal grey
Her halo is but horns
Dead and never alive
The succubus now has you

Tales Of A Future Past

Tales Of A Future Past *A story of a true dream*

As i feel the wind flowing over the car
I daydream of my love
Lucidity becomes cracked
Skidding...Oh god no

Trying to gain control
Seeing a truck in my path
Panic kicks in,Dying on my thoughts
Making contact,life decays

A crunching sound,glass shatters
Cutting my face,blinding my left eye
Steel mangles my body
Bones breaking,protruding the skin

Body and steel,a perfect mingling
Blood splatters through the drivers seat
Being literally crushed to death
Tormented by this unrelenting pain
Shallowed breath

A red fog covers my vision,Dying slowly in this steel tomb
Can't find my left leg,bleeding and seared by the heat of friction
Ripped apart by Primal force,Bones coming through my chest
Paralyzed but still in pain,crying out.i want to die,a fitting end being pressed

Bleeding from the eyes,Empty socket flows
Face shattered,unable to vocalize
Getting cold as ice,Asphyxia caused by flowing blood
Lungs filling up,Collapsing because of the wounds
Tranquilize(me)

Hours tread on like days,Flies start to swarm
Dying in the heat,Larvae eating away at my flesh
Tunneling through,The smell of decaying self
Sickness fills the air,and i feel it all
Wishing for my health

Fuel runs from the tortured steel.
And ignites from the still hot engine
Feeling the heat,Body starts to burn
Black smoke fills the inside,like the surface of the sun

Engulfed i slowly meet the end
Blistered and immolated
Turning to living ash
Pulse slows to nothingness,I am hated

Waking up as it was a dream
Startled and awoke with a scream
Needing comfort i get in the car
To see my friend,i calm myself

Radio cranked up i relax
Drink in my hand.cigarette in my mouth
Lucid in my own world
I think of the dream and only laugh

As i feel the wind flowing over the car
I daydream of my love
Lucidity becomes cracked
Skidding...Oh god no

Trying to gain control
Seeing a truck in my path
Panic kicks in,Dying on my thoughts
Making contact,life decays

Prying

Prying

So here we are,you holding my hand
Gripped like you feel my pain
Tears welling up in your eyes
I can feel your heart break
Last chance to spend precious time

I really don't want to leave you
But my time is here,Stop the tears
Don't cry for me,Pain i harbour
Let me be forgotten
The pain will fade,In my dishonor

My friends outside the door
Thinking i'll be okay
Missing the times we could be together
Just focus on our (yesterday)

Why do you really care,Guess i'll never know
You can't hear me (i will miss you)
My soul will never die...it is with you now
I will never forget...the way you made me feel

We never had a chance to live together or make a family
Of our own,This had to happen
My only regret is hurting you,Letting you get close to me
The pain will subside,The spiritual misery

If i had kept my cool.And accepted life
I would be holding you
Not like this
But you would be happier

That 2 ton juggernaut
Plowing over me
Ending this life
Forget about me

Here i lay broken and burned
Not even really alive
I see this scene from another plain
I am sorry you witnessed this
Never again